Okay well I am starting to get nervous now. I leave for Cali in 3 days and while it seems like it will be a nice vacation I am nervous. I guess the plan is that I will meet my donors parents. I know that they support my donors decision to help DH and I to have a baby, but I can't help but feel nervous. I was supposed to do this with DH by my side but his work is in an unstable place so he decided to forgo the trip. So I will be going to the meeting alone with my donor.
I guess what I am afraid of is the personal questions that I am sure are going to come up. I just don't want to cry or appear weak in front of them. But I know that there are just some parts of my journey that are too hard for me to retell without some tears. So I am spending my energy on packing and trying to think about all the other things I will be doing in Cali too.
Funny how I can manage to talk to Senators and news crews about IVF without losing it but I have this fear of losing it in front of my donors parents... WTF with that? I never posted it because I was pretty busy for a while fighting Georgia SB 169. It was a horrible bill that was targeting IVF and stem cell research. In the end we managed to fight out 99% of the IVF language but sadly, even though the bill had little support form the people, the bill passed the Senate. It has since died in the House... but still not a pretty blot to have on Georgia's record.
Sooooo can you keep a secret? I am surprising my Mum! :) She knows that I am going out to Cali but she does not know that I am going out early to surprise her with a late Mother's Days. Then as part of her surprise I plan to take some pictures with my brother so we can put them in a frame for her. I think it should be good I just need to meet my dad some place so he can take our picture and I have to figure out where that is. I am thinking the beach for some and another location for the others. But who knows what I will come up with...
Well now that I can tell my mom about this blog I will be posting more. Plus I will post more pictures while I am on vacation. :) Always easier to get online when you don't have work to get in the way. :)
Plus I am getting excited about the Capoeira event that I will be attending. Capoeira is a Brazilian Martial art that is practiced all over the world. I started last October and I love it. the group Mandinga in San Diego CA. is having their event over Memorial Day weekend. If you are in the area please try to check it out.
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